Struggling a Little Extra Lately

If you have been following along with these blog posts then you already know that I struggle with periods of depression. I also have anxiety. These two things combined can make life difficult for me. These past few months have been extra difficult. I’ve really struggled with a lack of motivation and willingness to do things – even things I typically enjoy. I’ve had a difficult time going to work and completing my schoolwork. I’ve been struggling to socialize with my friends and family. I’ve even been finding it hard to get up and walk my dog. 

The thing is I thought that I was doing well. I had struggled with a bout of depression over the summer, but I had been getting back on track. I was completing my daily goals and habits. I was going to work. I was socializing. Then, depression hit me again out of nowhere. I did not see any of the typical warning signs that I can usually pick up on and that allow me to gain some control before I really spiral into depression. It was as if I woke up one morning and suddenly I just did not want to do anything. Not only did I not want to do anything, but I felt like I couldn’t do anything. I had no energy to go about my day like usual. I had no motivation. It really felt impossible to get up and go do the things that needed to be done. 

I’m still finding it difficult to get out of bed most days, but I’m trying. I’m making commitments and trying to stick to them. I’m trying to get back on track, even though it seems to be a slow process this time around. I’m focusing on myself and my loved ones, because those are the important things. 

If you find yourself struggling a little extra lately, just know that you are not alone. Life can be difficult sometimes. I’m challenging you to reach out to someone. Maybe it’s your best friend or someone you haven’t talked to in awhile. Just reach out to someone and see how they’re doing. 

Also, remember to be patient even if you are not struggling. It can be easy to forget that there are people finding life difficult. If we are all just a little extra patient and a little extra kind then it might make someone’s day a little easier.